OH GOSH!!! HOW I AM GETTING FATTER SOON, IF I CONTINUE EATING. OH MAN, SADDDDDDDD. ): Yesterday is a boring day for me, cos i am at home the whole day. So boring. Argh. I was like thinking Why do people want to smoke and go for drinking? Maybe stress or under depression, maybe they think that they feel more better by doing all those thing. If lets say your crush were to do all those thing will you go stop him/her? I'm not too sure. Why thing go this way? This is not the way i wanted it to see. Nobody is perfect in this world, But you can choose to do it or not to do it. Argh. I just wish you won't do it. yea. I can't stop you, but don't wish to see you becoming like that. I will be very sad if you were to do some unbelievable things. Oh man. Why am started to care so much about you. Why am i becoming like that. I hate myself right now. I want to be a happy girl, nomatter what happen i will still put on a smile on my face. I want to be STRONG. I don't know what wrong with me now a days. I'm like so moody. All my smile is fate. My brain cell is damage. I just can't stop thinking. Maybe you will think that i am crazy, why do i still wanna do that even i know that is imposable. Don't ask me why, I myself also don't know. I am now under confusion right now. I'm really trying very hard, but pray that thing will just go smoothly after all. Missed you from the the moment i wake up. And you will never know that actually I'm referring to YOU. Hmmm. IS THE BEST THING YOU DON"T KNOW. :)
Hahas. smile.


YOU''ER JUST LIKE BRIGHTEST STAR IN THE SKY,
THAT EVERYONE OF US WILL NOTICE IT .

Hmmm today wake up early just to meet Audrey, Brenda and Hui xian in school for breakfast. But I am sorry cos i am late agrain today.hahas. After eating then go find Gomez to take our report book. After that meet Debra at tiong. Then we go church together to meet zhi han. After that down to bugis to walk around and have dinner there. After dinner we headed to town, cos zhi han want to get his staff there. Wow!!! you know what, while he is buying his staff, I saw some dress that can fit me for my prom. Hahas. Finally. Went home after that. It was like raining heavily outside. Hahas. The weather is like so cold. and i can sleep very smoothly NOW. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! LOVE TODAY.



I just hope you were there one day.
You are just like my everything.

Yesterday me wake up late, then wash up, after that go online. Read blogs and LJs. After that i was like taking 20 min to find a cloth, taking 30 min showing, come out i was like taking 30 min to make up. Oh Gosh. I am dame late laur. Actually by right i should meet all of my friends at 2pm but i reach at 3pm. Hahas. Meet them at long john, Fiona decided to eat Subway.Then down to Subway waiting for her to eat finish. While waiting me and Brenda was like kept on taking photos. Hahas. Walking around vivo, saw man yan and rozana. Then they join us for shopping. While shopping we were finding jobs at the same time. Yup. Yeah. Then go for cam woring. FUN FUN FUN. HAHAS. Home after that. Yeah. I have fun today.



Missed you everyday,
My brain just can't stop thinking.

Ytd wake up as usual. After washing up then go online and on the phone with Brenda. Planning to go out but something happen. So end up we didn't go out, so we stay at home the whole day. yup. hahas. So soon I'm gonna be FAT FAT FAT. OH GOSH. I'M like eating and eating and eating lots junks food at home. Therefor i decided to do 1 hour of excises. yeah. and i do it. Hahas. And now i will start to control myself by not eating junk food anymore. And now i want to go for diet, by not eating too much and skipping my dinner. yeah. Maybe i will be taking fruits for my dinner, I'll spend 1 hour everyday to do my excise. And i really mean it. yeah. I want to be slimmer. Hahas. After 1 hour of excises i rest for awhile then went to bathe agrain. Use com till 11.30, start talking on the phone with Brenda till nearly one. While talk to Brenda i was watching television. Yup. :) "Brenda don't be like a pig anymore SLEEP & SLEEP". Hahas.


Just freeze for a minute,
And I'll be there.

Hmmm. I KNOW IT IS IMPOSEABLE. Nomatter how much i do, it will never happen. And i do not know why am i getting in to this situation. Which is like falling for YOU. ARGH. I and you are only just passerby and not event friend at all. Why am i teasing went ever i think of i am gonna loose you nomatter what. And i will not be seeing you anymore. I just hope that at least you still will be my normal friend "this won't happen". I know i will never be loved by someone. I know i am nothing. I think i shoulden have come to this world. I don't wish to be in this world too. :( Is so stressful and so heart breaking, and make my life so miserable. I hate myself. Now then i believe that in this world there is no true friend, oneday they will just leave nomatter how close you and her are. Nobody can understand how i feel right now. I have loose a friend where she can understand me well and have given me lots of opinions when ever i needed it. I am just no at the right path right now. Who can help me with that?

Erm today is a very boring day for me. Stay at home the whole day watching television and using com. And this is what i do for my whole entirer day. :)

It's the first day.